Gone are the days that i was always confused, stressed, frightened and worried whenever i do an artwork. I'm glad that i enjoy the process of making now. That i'm not impatient anymore. That i do not stress myself racing against a thought/idea just to lose at the finish and let the spark die before i even had a chance of executing it. No, not anymore. I now love watching how it start, grow under my curious eyes and reach the ending tempo. I like how things are now. I don't know until what extent my current setup will be and the outcome on the following weeks (say, if i'll tire of it or frustrate myself again) but i learned to take in the process of create-and-destroy-and-create-again like it's the next sane thing to breathing.
Before December ended, i browsed my portfolio and surprised myself on how much i've done for the whole year. Despite my shortcomings and some personal things i feel sad of,
this is something i feel truthfully happy about. :)
Le voyage a commencé.