a thought to ponder

bad dream

in my restless sleep

branch out

"got to reach it"

another odd dream

lost chew midnight

Skip if you don't like nerds. This is nerdy talking.

I was very excited to continue connecting essential parts of this video project when i got stuck at the second rendering. The sound suddenly stopped. I think i did something wrong again. Or maybe i should do a little tweaking on how i render the sound and video together. The perfect person to ask about sounds doesn't want to talk to me anymore.

Knocking my brain to figure this out. I am almost there... I AM ALMOST THERE.

How do we go around this huh?

 *helpless creys*

sardonically speaking

I don't know how to take these photo links sent by a friend (friend conspirators).

Okay, I get the joke and can i just say... it's good to be far away right now.

Thanks for the shirt in advance, damnit! 

Ramon Bautista's Best Selling Book :

"Bakit Hindi Ka Crush ng Crush Mo?" (Translation: Why does your crush doesn't like you?)

with

"Keep Calm and Abangan Mo Sila Magbreak" shirt.

and...

Hahah, the Abangers (forever alone) shirt. Hahah, damn.

by disappointment only

Today, this installation by Alejandro Diaz struck me the most.

From his exhibition "Blame it on Mexico" at The Aldrich.

girl problems

You know the kind of feeling that you feel something you're not supposed to feel, but you feel about it anyway and no matter how hard you try to ignore it, it is still there, waiting for you like a hungry bouncing bunny "you can't run away from me."

Checkmate.

hello life

Why, I can always relate to Kiki's Delivery Service (Majo no Takkyūbin). 

surreal

You've got to hide your love away

End of the Road

I was listening to my Sir Eddie Vedder‘s playlist the whole night. The Into The Wild soundtrack have really nice lyrics.

Last night has been difficult. I felt a hard kick on my chest, indescribable feeling i have never felt before. Like i got knocked out of my breath and the world came spiraling down. Like i wanted the ground to swallow me as the air left my lungs. Like i was being sucked into a black hole.

On my way home, i was in a deep thought, instead of going down to Bishan, i got down to Nicoll Highway. Hahah, that deep darn it! I guess i was staring outside the window so hard, staring at the city lights or staring into nothingness, and didn't give much thought of the train door opening and closing. I was silently chuckling about my stupidity when i came out from the wrong station.

Sixteen train stations! :P Ten additional stations. Surreal. Love is evil. The beer is good anyway.

when things turn rubbish

when things turn rubbish {graphite on paper}

I did some quick sketching today while waiting. I think i'm getting rusty.

I must refresh my hands in preparation for some serious stuff. I'm going to paint again. :)

while the world is still sleeping

4am. Waking up early to study for an exam.

 Sunday Girl

Where Is My Mind (The Pixie's Cover)

We Are The Willows

A Funeral Dressed As A Birthday Party

Night Fruit

Bittersweet

 

Coldplay

The Scientist

*all imgs came from google images

tragic

Maybe i should have been born a man...

Il s'avere complique -- to be a girl.

Eating more ice cream to kill the feeling. Kill.

Dave Grohl is the only person in the whole world
who cares enough that i'm a girl..

Mahirap magpigil ng nararamdaman, lol.

Calling all unicorns and UFOs, just take me.

+_+

Fallen

Fallen

{mixed media}

*from the dream i had last night

when going blank

Strange Terrain

{mixed media}

Confused feelings, several unfinished paintings, and now pepping back to life. Note to self: 

"Do you have doubts about life? Are you unsure if it is really worth the trouble? Look at the sky: that is for you. Look at each person’s face as you pass them on the street: those faces are for you. And the street itself, and the ground under the street, and the ball of fire underneath the ground: all these things are for you. They are as much for you as they are for other people. Remember this when you wake up in the morning and think you have nothing. Stand up and face the east. Now praise the sky and praise the light within each person under the sky. It’s okay to be unsure. But praise, praise, praise.” — The Shared Patio; Miranda July.

bad hare day

Bad Hare Day

{watercolour and graphite, 228 x 304mm}

I'm really having a wretched week. Hoping Friday will make amends. So there. 

Changing Christmas wishlist

Last weekend, we've been struck by a bad, bad news that left us heartbroken and shaken. The southern part of the Philippines was hit by tropical storm Sendong. As of today, there are 927 dead and still a hundred reported missing especially in Cagayan de Oro and Iligan City. It feels so awful seeing dead kids on the news, dead bodies in rows at muddy roads. There are survivors, some still needed to be rescued and a whole lot of them in the evacuation centers. THEY NEED HELP - food, clothes, blankets and water. Christmas is coming and just imagine how these people will spend the eve of the supposed to be happy Filipino celebration.

Today, i'll finish packing some of my clothes and blankets i can send to CDO and Iligan. To my friends who are planning to give me a Christmas gift, thank you very much but please please... i will be happier if you donate. And you reading this, maybe you can share your Christmas:

---> Philippine Red Cross online donation

---> LBC Foundation

---> Rock Ed Philippines

---> Other list of groups and institutions accepting volunteers and donations

Please please spread the word, share this post, share the list. Few minutes of your time can do wonders. Thank you and advance Merry Christmas!

bad fall

I'm having a really sad day.

Anyway -- pretty lights.

Nice isn't? I copied the branches for this artwork.

Bad Fall

{watercolour and graphite}

Strange strangle

Strange strangle

{watercolour and graphite}

Talking about frustrations. I couldn't make the water more watery like a still pond of an autumn afternoon. I'm going to try again until i perfect it in my own extent . Heh. 

:)

Turn left, turn right, up to the next stellar

Turn left, turn right, up to the next stellar

{watercolour on paper}

*I'm still afraid of some personal details about my well-being, hahah. But this morning, something reminded me that small simple things make us feel good and remember how interesting life is. 

Mind over matter

Mind over matter
{watercolour on paper}

Because midweek is a happy thought.